Not only has Rihanna forgiven Chris Brown, she’s still in love with him!

Rihanna joined Oprah Winfrey for a no-holds-barred interview in Barbados where she confirmed rumors that she and Brown reconnected in St. Tropez earlier this year.

“We went to a mutual friend’s party on a yacht. It’s awkward because I still love him,” Rihanna said while admitting that her “stomach drops” when she’s around him. “I have to maintain this poker face.”

Calling him the “first love” of her life, Rihanna says “I’m not at peace if he is unhappy.”

“I truly love him and the main thing for me is that he is at peace,” says Rihanna. “I’m not at peace if he is unhappy or he is still lonely. I care. It actually matters that he finds that peace.”

Do you think Chris Brown will ever find ‘that peace’? Yeah, we don’t either.