When Chris Brown sees the infamous leaked photo of ex-girlfriend Rihanna with a bruised and battered face following his early-morning assault on her on February 8, he still can’t believe it.

“When I look at it now, it’s just like, wow, like, I can’t — I can’t believe that — that actually happened,” Brown told CNN’s Larry King in an interview slated to run on Wednesday night, his first since his arrest in February.

Brown also claims in the interview that he cannot remember that night’s violence, which police said included the then-19-year-old singer punching, biting and choking Rihanna.