Boo freakin’ hoo! Nikki McKibbin is blaming her drug addiction and alcohol abuse on Simon Cowell. He is the mean bitch from the American Idol judge panel that always has scathing comments for the participants.

“I came out of Idol with a lack of self-confidence,” McKibbin tells the new issue of Us Weekly. “I think I had my first solo in school when I was 5, and I got more as I got older: That’s the biggest compliment in choir. I had never been told I wasn’t good enough. Having to hear it for so many weeks from Simon Cowell killed me inside. I couldn’t get the s–t he had said to me out of my head.”

She continued: “It drove me deeper into my depression. I wouldn’t say that this was Simon’s fault. It just added to the addict that I already was.”

The typically chaperoned cast would still manage to get a hold of their vices. Nikki was able to sneak vodka into the house on a regular basis. Eventually she broke down and ended up in a pysch ward. After attending rehab with Dr.Drew on VH1’s Celebrity Rehab, she claims to be sober.

Awwww. Poor kid. Time to put on the big girl panties and deal. Believe it or not there are people out there with bigger problems than Simon being mean.

[Us Weekly]